Greetingz 2 all who read!
As this is my first blog post, I would like 2 initially apologise for any spelling and grammar mistakes i make. I ain't sure how 2 start as I have no previous experience regarding bloggings and journal writings. But as this is my blog, there r no specific rules here (except for the fact that there is gonna be no foul language or any type of racist remarks from me and hopefully from others who, if they want, email me or sumthin).
My life has gone through many ups and downs (just like all most everyone's has) within all aspects. I initiated blog 2 help vent my anger a bit concerning many problems I've faced and 2 get a feeling that there is sum1 listening 2 me. Ok, b4 I really begin I'd like 2 make sum things clear about myself. I am a person with a moderate temper but sumtimes sum people just make me mad. I don't become violent nor aggressive but maybe more assertive in a sense. I am a no-nonsense kinda guy, though sumthimes i like 2 let it all loose. My blog will seem very very boring 2 many people (or maybe everyone!), but I'll try my best 2 show my humourous side as we go along.
Now I will summarise the events of my life as much as possible. Don't worry, I'll keep it pretty short but i just wanna give u a drift of my life. Ok firstly, I currently live with my parents (i am 18 thought) and my two sisters. My sisters are 15 and 11. I get along well with all of them (though I do have regular quarrels with my little sis, but i guess thats normal, huh?). My parents are good people (at least in front of others). I am very close 2 my mother but at times I feel there is no one 2 listen and understand me. My sister whose 15 sumtimes listens and understands but she's still 2 young and gets fed-up pretty fast. I have no relationship with my dad whatsoever. I'll tell u sumthin without exaggeration, I speak almost 1, yes only 1, medium-sized sentence with him in 2 or 3 days. So thats like almost 180 sentences a year!! I have tried 2 talk more but he only replies and talks when either I say sumthin or when he has 2 scold me! Most of the time he asks my mum 2 tell me 2 do sumthin he wants me 2 do. At times he asks my sisters 2 do sumthin the he knows only i can do, so that my sisters can ask me 2 do it when they can't!! I find this pathetic. My mum confides in me mostly, so there were times when she wants 2 mend our relationship. If u ask me, i find that it's gone so cold that it can't be warmed again.
About my school life (I graduated last year), it was all pretty well. I have few but precious friends. As I am of a non-violent type of person I had difficulty adjusting in my school that consisted of nasty bullies and evil-minded freaks! Ok, maybe that was a bit of an exaggeration statement but its close 2 the truth. I studied in my last school for 8 years, from the 5th grade until high-school graduation. I had a crush on a girl in my class. A huge crush! But as coeducation is not common in my country, I really didn't get 2 see her often. My crush was a little...ummm...cheap lets say. For all those years when i had the crush, i didn't have the guts 2 speak 2 the girl, and that 2 for 8 whole years!!! See what i mean when i say cheap? She (lets call her Iris. Btw, its not her real name) on the other hand had no idea about this. Absolutely nothing. During last final 2 years, we had mixed classes. I really enjoyed those..lol. Sumhow, near the end of the year I needed 2 copy notes I had missed because i was absent. And sumhow, i couldn't get it from any guy but i discovered that Iris lived very close 2 my house. Only 30secs away!! Can u believe my luck. Ok, so I prepared for 2 weeks approx of what I would say and how I'd ask! (As Iris is really beautiful I was nervous because I am kinda the geek in my class). But I did go 2 her house on the last day and talked 2 her for half an hour and borrowed her book as well. She was the first girl I had talked so long (had never done it b4) and my first female friend. Long story short, we became friends. But id like 2 add v became friends because I found sum1 so sweet in nature as her and sum1 who'd listen 2 me when I talk. She has repeated things I said in several converstaions which I know no1 else does. As I had four friends previously she became the fifth (but i had 2 'discard' one of the other guys because he wasnt my kind). The first time I went 2 her was on the 5th of May. In September, she started university while I had 2 redo sum exams. Also I fell in love with her in the same month! Almost within 5 months!! I thought i'd te.ll her which i did. She took it well but revealed 2 me about her boyfriend who she loves! I was heart-broken but I ain''t a person 2 give up that easy. So i am still her friend and i still send her love cards and SMSs which she doesn't mind. Ok, I know I said 2 much about Iris but I had 2 spill it all out. Cuz i have no 1 who'd listen 2 me and hear my serious and petty problems (except her).
Changing lanes, I have had major confusion about my career choice. As i am a person who likes 2 take things easy and not easily depressed this was a serious obstacle. When I was a kid I wanted 2 be a Rocket Engineer then a Karate sumthin then a Pilot, Marine Biologist, FBI. detective and finally, an Astronomer! In my 11th standard I was still obsessed with Astronomy until I discovered that u need 3 PhDs in, namely Physics, Maths and Computer Science!! That washed away my hope (as a ain't a very brilliant student in the first place). Though I can't remember any time where my dad played a major role in my life, here he suggested me Aeronautical Engineering as an option. I hadn't hear about it b4 but was curious when he told me it was about sum 'aircraft engineering'. I was never really into planes but I had seriously considered his opinion. Throughout the year and until my graduation I was just waiting 2 become an Aeronautical Engineer. As there was only 1 university offering that course, I had a tough competition ahead. I 'tried' 2 work hard in the final year but my grades in Physics weren't adequate. My Maths is good though. I repeated Physics twice but in vain. I started considering other options after my faliure. Thus more career opions became evident. I then considered Law (cuz i am pretty good at arguing for the sake of it), Psychology (I love this kinda stuff, I am alwayz analysing my situations and people. I am a self-proclaimed Manipulator) and Hospitality Management (it just seemed interesting. Frankly speaking, business is not my cup of tea).
Finally 2day as I type, I have a smile on my face cuz I have a transparent idea of what I am really gonna do. Its gotta be Interior Designing. As alwayz, I have done my homework. I researched about all careers b4 deciding. I fel it has almost everything I've ever wanted. I'd be studying Colour and Design Psychology, using Maths skills, Persuation (my speciality), Innovation (i am modestly innovative as people around me say) and Computers (graphical designing and stuff). I'll cope with the business part as I think i can manage it.
Now I know this is a really long post and many of u might not read much of it, but as i said a just want 2 be heard cuz am an introvert. The only 4 friendsI have r the people i trust (besides my mum of course) with my life. Yes, i am a bit skeptical about trust amongst people i am surounded with. I think i've said 2 much 4 a day but the start was what was really daunting. Since I have pulled it through I hope 2 post whenever I find enuff time and content. Please feel free 2 send me suggestions or comments as i am very open 2 'healthy' criticism and 'constructive' dialogue. I am sure sum people can tell me what information I should have added or removed from here as I still am new 2 this kinda thing. As my life is full of mostly uninteresting things I apologise 2 have wasted your time.
Thanx 4 bearing with me